Emotional Week

For those wondering, nothing in particular horrible happened. I have just been feeling really down lately. I have no energy and feel like I’m falling short in a lot of areas. Today, I felt convicted about my attitude and outlook on life. I’ve really been struggling with my emotions this week. I go from feeling high to low in a matter of seconds. I want to take a couple weeks and reflect and focus on what I do have. I know I’m incredibly blessed, but for whatever reason I’ve struggled lately with seeing the positive side of things. I’ve struggled with comparing myself to others and feeling like a total failure. I have felt overwhelmed and been barely able to take care of my kids. And my even harder task, Brandon….I’ve been very discouraging to him. I haven’t supported him, but instead have been shooting down all of his ideas. I haven’t been exercising and come up with the excuse of time. Then I waste time on social media and feel guilty for that. With all of our traveling and family outings, I have become immune to feeling much excitement. I have grown to take our opportunities for granted and instead see them as a lot of work. I want to take the next couple weeks to pour into my family. I want to focus on my own health and eat better and exercise. I want to spend more time in the word, praying, and worshiping and less time doing pointless things. I am incredibly blessed and need to focus on these little rugrats that I’ve been blessed with.

My prayer is that God softens my heart and helps me see the good in my life. I pray I can learn to be content in every circumstance and situation. I pray that I genuinely enjoy my kids and my husband. I want to laugh more and choose to be entertained, instead of stress and worry. Let’s face it these people are very entertaining. I want to feel excitement and joy and not take life for granted. I sure don’t want to take my family for granted. They are everything to me. So peace out for a couple weeks while I enjoy this crazy family of mine.