Life as a Yowler

I planned to wake up today and exercise first thing. It always helps me to wake up and have more energy. My kids decided to wake up super early. In spite of turning on a show for them, getting a work out in was impossible this morning. It was just one of those days. I also had plans to clean my house this morning after Joah’s school was done. Again, it was just impossible to get done with a bunch of whiny, needy little grumps. I was so frustrated and discouraged. This stage of life is so hard. Four kids age 5 and under is so hard. Strong willed kids are hard. Energetic kids are hard. I was definitely feeling sorry for myself and focused on why my life is so difficult. The thing I was convicted of is my attitude. Everyone is facing a battle of some kind. Most people’s battle is a LOT  more difficult than mine. Whether it’s infertility, a broken relationship, the loss of a loved one, poverty, hunger, disease, homelessness, persecution, addiction, a horrible tragedy, discrimination, whatever….everyone is facing something.

Im extremely blessed! I woke up to four happy, healthy, and very loud kids. I woke up to a husband who loves me, forgives me, and works so hard for his family. I woke up in my bed, in my home, in safety. Instead of dwelling on all the negative I’m choosing to spend the rest of today focusing on the positive and the many blessings I have.  I’m choosing to pray and hurt for those who are facing unimaginable heartache right now whatever it is. There are so many battles going on and I feel so helpless to do anything but pray and change my attitude and perspective.  My job right now is to take care of my husband and kids. My job is to teach and train my kids. My job is to teach them right from wrong, compassion, love, grace, and the gospel. I don’t take my job lightly and I’m thankful that God can use me in spite of my thousands of flaws. God knows my heart. He know I desire with everything inside me to do my job well and raise Godly, kind, compassionate, serving, righteous, understanding, loving kids.  I’m thankful for my life and I’m so blessed!!!!